Run, Venus, Run

I love my life. I have an amazing family. 


I try very hard to be a good mom. To fulfill all my obligations to the best of my ability. To learn and grow in ways  that will make my family and house happier. I'm moving ever closer to a more simple, eco-aware, homesteading kind of life and that is a major goal of mine.




But sometimes, like now, I fantasize about running away. Just for a day... not forever. Just a day of no one else in my head, no thoughts of what anyone needs or mentally mapping where all my little ducks are at the moment.


Just one day, one night of freedom. Of being blissfully selfish.


And while those thoughts are still there under the surface, like a dream. One of my kids will make me laugh so hard that I can't catch my breath. Or do something so sweet and genuine that I can feel my heart actually ache with love for the people they are and I know there is no where else I'd rather be.


Sometimes, being "free" isn't all it's cracked up to be.